I live in a town filled with music. I can not go to a restaurant without seeing an artist perform. I can't walk down the streets of Nashville without being surrounded by the sounds of dozens of people singing their hearts out, drunk or not but mostly drunk. Music is EVERYWHERE. I breathe it in, hear it, see it, even smell it, but somehow I am not a part of it. I am distanced.
I thought that by being a part of the music industry, I'd be fulfilling my dream of being involved with music. I thought that singing in front of church with the worship team and taking a few more semesters of voice lessons would be enough, but its not. I settled.
(Why isn't this enough? Where do I go from here? Do I need to be part of a choir? Do I need to go back to school? What do I do? There are so many questions running through my head.)
Back in high school I was involved with everything. On the music end alone I was in band, chorus, all county, musical theatre, marching band, drama classes, and a bunch of other random music related groups. Not only that but I held positions in many of them, from treasurer to president. It was crazy, but I was living through music.
I can communicate through music in ways I could never communicate with words. When I sing I feel as though I am able to truly express myself and be vulnerable. I may not have the best voice in the world, but I learned that it doesn't matter as long as I am able to use it. I'm not the best with words, but with song and voice I feel as though I can truly connect with people.
So what do I do? I don't want to be a famous singer or anything. I just want to be able to express myself the way I used to and maybe help others who are also passionate about music use the voice God gave them.
I am pondering, praying,...